Script draft 1

Script- The Negative and Positives of Grief (Autobiographical Story)

 

 

Introduction

-Grief… not a straight forward thing is it?

-If you have or were will be in that situation where you have lost someone… could you describe that feeling?

-Ever since my father died in January 2015, I have been pondering this question.

 

The shock

-I don’t think you can truly know what emotions you’re going to feel when someone close to you dies until you are dropped into the deep end and forced to somehow survive.

-For me… all it took was just that one phone call…

- Then my world suddenly became empty.

- I sat in that in armchair for days on end, staring into dead space.

-I think a part of my self died with my dad that day.

-It was as if my mind was a computer and that someone just hit the reboot button.

 

The black Hole

-My life spiralled down to a dark place soon after.

-Without warning you go from feeling empty… to feeling too much.

-My end of year exams caused my overload of emotions to manifest in debilitating anxiety.

-The everyday stresses, accompanied by the trauma of losing my dad at the age of 17… it pushed me to a point of low depression, which then drained my motivation to do my work, which made me anxious because I wasn’t getting enough done and then cycle goes on and on and on.

-I lacked even the motivation to gain motivation.

 

The climb   

-It took the full support of my family to help me build myself up again. They were the closest I could hope to get to someone empathizing with my situation.

 

-Shared trauma really did bring us closer together as a unit.

 

-This support from my family gave me meaning in my life again. It drove me to search discover this new person I was becoming.

 

-After joining the foundation course, I went from never drawing at all to drawing every day!


-the films and drawings that I created gave me someone to feel passionate again.


-I noticed that my experience with grief gave me a unique perspective on the world.


- My art gave me something to motivate me.


-For the first time in years, I was able to communicate my feelings to others and gain joy out of others enjoying my work.

 

Acceptance

-You know, back at the point of that phone call, I would never have even considered any form of existence after then.

-I’m a different person now.

-Yes I can feel depressed at times, have no drive, even feel anxious

-But now that Ive come to accept that I will never get my father back, I have found other things to fullfill that void for me, which give me joy  and the motivation to create.

-Just like their can’t be light without darkness… so to can’t joy and motivation exist without knowing what depressions and anxiety feel like.

 
I am planning to record a voice over that uses this draft of the script, from which I will experiment with capturing and editing shots so that I can see whether this draft of the script effectively communicates my story with the negative and positive aspects of grief whilst also appropriately fitting in coherently into the rest of the film.


The script as it stands will need to be redraft, as it currently describes to much of my story to the audience. The purpose of the visuals is to tell the story to the audience through visuals alone and my research into Sergio Leone goes to show that the story should be able to tell the narrative  on its own, before any dialogue is added.